Sunday, December 11, 2011

69. it makes no sense

this searching for happiness in all the wrong places.
we hope we hope for love
for love to somehow fill a void within us, within me.
we seek, keep our lives busy with all the mundane things
that are meant to keep us living
like food, love, relationships, a job.
within all this,
i still find zero content.
maybe for a while, maybe for a bit.
but at the end of the day, week or hour
it comes down to this.
right now right here right in this moment,
i am unhappy.

and i'm not sure how to fix it without running away
or disappearing.
without all my little fixes like alcohol, a few cigarettes.

home. where are you?


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  2. Running away can't fix a thing... The unhappiness stems from within you, not your environment. Like your shadow, regardless of where you run to, no matter how fast or far, it will follow. The only way to deal with your issues is to confront them, and overcome them. because at the end of the day, no matter what, you cannot run away from yourself, no matter how hard or often you try.