Monday, February 11, 2013

short hand

Being born into an asian family is sometimes a curse. One of the biggest issues is the whole family honour and "having face" This apparently applies to everything - and when you end up trying to please whoever, you end up upsetting someone. Usually, someone who has ridiculous concepts.

I had a relative who said "why you put on facebook the photos" These are posed photographs and frankly are boring and I will gain nothing out of it by putting it up. I simply placed them up there because its the easiest way for everyone to download them from.

But I don't understand why privacy is such an issue in this case. There's always a choice i.e don't tag yourself, set your privacy settings to yourself only or simply don't have facebook. Its incredibly hypocritical because as human beings we are curious to see what others is up to and with facebook, it's easier and extremely convenient. BUT yet we don't appreciate when we end up on someone elses facebook.

As a photographer, and more specifically a documentary photographer, I can't help but be offended.

I document life around for what it is; may it be beautiful, sad, happy etc. It's life and we all know life is short. What we have is photographs that last and should be documented to be remembered.

I'm struggling with figuring out who I really am or what makes me happy. or how to be happy. And I think it's with being okay with who I am - and I don't know who I am yet.

And that begins with my birth to now. I'm going through old photographs, memories, new photographs, the past the present etc...

just to have some sort of grasp and a deeper understanding... bu

I can go on and on about how this trip has affected me but for now.... I'm trying to gather my thoughts slowly. It's been too hectic around the house and the lack of personal space - I haven't had time to really think about it a lot...

but slowly.

also, leaving in kuala lumpur on friday and USA on Monday.

all my love & happy chinese new year (to whoever still reads...)